Getting back on schedule

For months I have been fighting my lack of motivation to do ANYTHING!! It's been very frustrating because I know that I need to get stuff done. I just come home from work and sit on the couch. The kids were lucky if I made them a decent dinner. That was the extent of my evening. It's been very depressing and overwhelming....well...ding ding....it IS depression or in my case anxiety that leads to depression. Well, I upped my Zoloft dosage and the dr added Wellbutrin....so far so good. I am finally MOTIVATED....still not getting as much done as I would like but hopefully soon I will be "with it" again. I have so many ideas for my Avon business and of course things I want to do for HFC, it's just getting into gear and putting them into action!!!

I have gotten my 12 South Angels sponsor letter done - FINALLY!!! I have been needing to get that done for quite a while. My Light the Night walk is in ONE MONTH.....I had so many plans to get my fundraising done earlier so maybe I could raise ALOT more than my goal...now I will be lucky to hit my goal...CRAP!!! So...if you would like to donate and help me......http://www.active.com/donations/fundraise_public.cfm?key=jillandjennie

I really should be talking about Hurricane Rita that's coming our way....my life is OBSESSED with HFC, LTN, etc. But we have prepared in case we lose power. Really, we lose power in a rainstorm, so I figure 60 mph winds will knock it out! I am just SOOOO glad I didn't have to deal with trying to get out of Houston....OMG what a mess and total nightmare. There are going to be some really serious repercussion because of all the people that headed back home because the traffic was NOT EVEN MOVING!!!! God protect those people. They tried to get out..........

Crunch Time!

WOW! Even in the worst of times, good still happens! A 10-year old boy named Drew escaped Hurricane Katrina in Louisiana and came to Texas. He was not feeling well so his parents took him to the dr. He was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia....unbelievable. This family has lost every physical possesion they own and now they are fighting for the life of their son. Luckily for Drew and his family, they were at Medical City Dallas. Drew's drs are the Three Wise Men (aka Lenarksy, Goldman and Weinthal).....they have been connected to our awesome North Texas branch of the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, Heroes for Children, and one of my favorite local families, the Fighting Hays Family. The family's story has hit the national news circuits, and Heroes for Children has gotten a ton of publicity from it! I have received several requests from people wanting to volunteer for our organization.......I am just now getting our computer up and running again and have sooooo much to get caught up on! I am going to bust my bobo to get a volunteer newsletter out next week!

And we are really trying to get Jenny and Larissa on Kidd Kraddick's show. He interviewed Drew's mom on the air and she told them about HFC. He asked many questions about HFC and pledged $5,000 to us!!!!!! HOLY COW!!!!

So, maybe sooner than later, HFC will be able to pay me to work for them full-time! What an awesome opportunity....it will be my dream to get paid doing something I love!! (I do it for FREE now, so imagine how happy I would be to be paid to do it FULL TIME!!)

Have a good day tomorrow!!

How full has your life been?

ALLISON LEIGH SCOTT

December 17, 2003 - September 13, 2004

www.scotthousehold.com

"Wonder"

Alanis Morisette

Doctors have come from distant cities just to see me, stand over my bed

disbelieving what they're seeing
They say I must be one of the wonders of God's own creation and as far as they

can see they can offer no explanation
Newspapers ask intimate questions, what confessions they reach into my head

to steal the glory of my story
They say I must be one of the wonders of God's own creation and as far as they

can see they can offer no explanation
I believe Fate smiled and Destiny laughed as she came to my cradle

"know this child will be able"

laughed as my body she lifted

"know this child will be gifted with love, with patience and with faith

she'll make her way"
People see me, I'm a challenge to your balance I'm over your head show

I confound you and astound you to know I must be one of the wonders of God's

own creation and as far as you can see you can offer me no explanation
I believe Fate smiled and Destiny laughed as she came to my cradle

"know this child will be able"

laughed as she came to my mother

"know this child will not suffer"

laughed as my body she lifted

"know this child will be gifted with love, with patience and with faith

she'll make her way"

In LOVING honor of the fullest 9-month life ever imaginable

Too much to do

Holy cow! I am just overwhelmed with stuff to get done! The little gerbil in my head is spinning so fast!!! I spent the evening at my Avon meeting. I really wish I could get that moving (aka make more money) faster! If I want any chance of working for HFC I will need that extra money, as I am sure they won't be able to pay me my normal salary {sigh}

This summer I have pretty much dropped the ball on my volunteer stuff.....I have some MAJOR recruiting and motivating to do!! I have got a ton of ideas, now just to find the time (and energy) to get it all done!!

Oh, and let's not talk about the house!! EEEKKK!! It's a disaster (well, I guess not truly when you think of folks in LA and MS.) We have the floor painted in Jacob's room so hopefully this weekend we can get his bed moved in there! We'll worry about the wall a little later!

Remember Allison Leigh Scott (www.scotthousehold.com) tomorrow. September 13th is her first angel anniversary. It rips my heart out today when I think about the fact that it has been ONE YEAR since Jenny and Andrew held their beautiful blue-eyed, raspberry-blowing, giraffe-loving baby in their arms..................

Blue Eyed-Giraffe Lover

What a weekend of mixed emotions! I spent Saturday with Jenny - celebrating the upcoming birth of Maggie and celebrating the life of sweet Allie (http://www.scotthousehold.com). How is it possible for me to miss a child I never met? My heart aches for my friend this week. Tuesday marks the one-year anniversary of Allie's passing from Acute Myeloid Leukemia - she was 3 days shy of reaching her 9-month birthday. I miss Allie because I miss her for Jenny. You know how you share your kids and your friend's kids? Always keeping up with what's going on with everyone's families? It hurts me so that I didn't and can't share in Allie. But Allie is very much a part of my life and of my family's life. Jenny talks about Allie all the time - I KNOW Allie because of Jenny's stories. So, yes, I can truly miss her even though I never met her in this physical world.

Saturday was Jenny and Larissa's baby shower at Dana's. Larissa lost her precious Taylor 4 years ago in November. She is now expecting her first son, Luke. Her first child since losing Taylor to the same cancer that took Allie. Fate was sealed for these two women, both of their daughters passed away in the very same hospital room 3 years apart. I am so proud of these two! They have taken their grief and now help other families who are dealing with the same pain they experience. They formed a foundation supporting families with child diagnosed with cancer. Heroes for Children....because Allie and Taylor are the heroes for the children that are battling cancer after there own battle. (http://www.heroesforchildren.org) The baby shower was unbelievable! There were about 45 people there! Jenny and Larissa opened presents for an HOUR! Can you imagine? Oh, but it was so glorious! A few moments of joy mixed with tears....it was bittersweet. Jenny got a frame from Annie that says "My big sister is my guardian angel." How beautiful - very touching! Also, between all the people and presents...tv cameras! Jenny and Dana (http://www.caringbridge.org/tx/sameisenberg) are filming a documentary about friendship. Those two have a bond that NOTHING can break! It's so precious to see their connection! I adore them both!

Saturday night we joined Jenny and Andrew with their family and friends for a BBQ. It was a time to be together, to strengthen each other as they face such a painful anniversary. It was a good time. Jenny rented a jumphouse for the kids....it was PERFECT! She thinks of everything! She knew the kids would be bored if they didn't have something to entertain them and that the parents would have to leave early. She truly amazes me! After some delicious hamburgers, we joined Jenny and Andrew at Allie's tree. Jenny spoke (big surprise that Andrew kept quiet!). She thanked their families for their support during their rough year and a half. She thanked those who have come into their lives in the year since Allie left. Tears were flowing. But it was precious.....the strength and love there........