So, blogging...mmm...I want to blog because I think I could be a good writer, but then this is PUBLIC! Oh, well, I have to be honest with myself. I want to be a better person than I am. I know a lot of what I deal with is with my depression-which IS a medical condition! Luckily, Mike knows and FINALLY understand this. He does support me, even through his frustration. Trust me I SHARE his frustration. But I got a lot done this weekend. Sorted the entire laundry room! It's so nice and clean - and well, I think I started my motivation. Mike and Jacob are gone at church camp until Friday. Jennie is at the lakehouse with Grandma and Grandpa. It's just me and Peanut! I got 90% moved back into our bedroom tonight. Geez, I feel like I have a huge monkey off my back. I am going to get this house looking so good on Friday when Mike gets back. I am going to prove to him that I am not as pathetic I feel. He has done so much! I am so incredibly lucky to have a husband who sees my flaws and accepts them as part of me. That is incredibly huge! I have seen marriages fall apart because they 'grew' apart...I don't understand it. Mike and I have had some hard times, but by the grace of God we made it. 17 years........oh well, that's another post! But this is pretty much for me, I know no one will read this.......

